Have doubts about God? You’re in good company…
“How long will our Lord stay away?… Where is my faith?… My God—how painful is this unknown pain… So many unanswered questions live within me—I am afraid to uncover them—because of the blasphemy.”
The above was one of the many doubts expressed by Mother Teresa in her letters and private journal. The Church and Mother Teresa kept these writings under wraps until 2007, a decade after her death.
They might have been uncomfortable about their doubts about God, perhaps you are too, but God isn’t.
“O Lord , how long will the wicked, how long will the wicked celebrate?”
“Now when the Lamb opened the fifth seal, I saw under the altar the souls of those who had been violently killed because of the word of God and because of the testimony they had given. They cried out with a loud voice, “How long, Sovereign Master, holy and true, before you judge those who live on the earth and avenge our blood?”
“Why, Lord , do you stand far off? Why do you pay no attention during times of trouble?”
“…Therefore, so that I would not become arrogant, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan to trouble me—so that I would not become arrogant. I asked the Lord three times about this, that it would depart from me. But He said to me, “My grace is enough for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” So then, I will boast most gladly about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may reside in me. Therefore I am content with weaknesses, with insults, with troubles, with persecutions and difficulties for the sake of Christ, for whenever I am weak, then I am strong.”
St Paul in 2 Corinthians 12:7-10
“At about three o’clock Jesus shouted with a loud voice, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” that is, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”
Doubting isn’t bad, it only means you’ve experienced the mess of life and have started to think about it.
Doubting isn’t bad, not following it through is. Lean lightly on your doubt and you’ll only sink in and get stuck. Lean hard and you’ll push through to find God is waiting on the other side.